But I got to remind myself of all the great things I have in my life, I want to live in a place of thankfulness, and everything good that comes my way as not deserved, but a bonus. And I don't want to grow tired of doing good, pursuing good, pursuing change, believing in change, that people can change, and I don't want to change who I am because of society, but I want to change who I am because I've been affected by the truth. And I want to challenge what I believe, but not throw it all away because I'm unsure. And I want to be challenged but not confused. And I want to be happy. Not scared of the future. I want to be confident that I am enough and you won't get bored of me, tired of me, annoyed by me. And I want to understand other people, where they come from, they way they think, why they think that way, and I don't want to judge their ways as wrong, but I don't want to compromise my ways to conform, I want balance.
And I want to believe in God, I want to. I want to have something to hope in, I do not want to break the rules, i want to not care about rules, I want to believe in Love.
