our pumpkin got old.

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UUUUMMM, so how's about...God is Good. Let's just think for a second what that might mean, and how some of the ways we might be thinking of God don't match up with this statement. Maybe it's time to challenge those ways of thinking.

Let's stop worrying about right and wrong and just CHILL OUT. Wasn't that how it was in the garden of Eden? Adam and Eve had no knowledge of good and Evil. But these days we feel lost without that knowledge. It is what makes us feel safe and in control. Can you imagine giving that up? Well it can be a scary if you don't also add in a very important relationship, one with God.

If we all stop caring about sin and also don't have a relationship with God, well that is anarchy. But if we all stop caring about our sin and DO have a relationship with God, well that is FREEDOM!!! We will do right because we care about God's heart, when we don't do right we will repent because we've hurt His heart, but we will then know we are forgiven.

Give up your right and wrongs, give up your judgements of yourself and others. Chill right out. God cares about our hearts not our actions.

These thoughts are compliments of conversations with dear Charlotte.

Not knowing the right answers does not have to equal confusion.

Hey, so I am pretty happy though lots of the time, don't get the wrong idea yeah? haha! Comes and goes, I was reading a book once about the elusiveness of happiness, so true. Joy on the other hand, well maybe it is a choice. That is what I hear.

I don't have to sit under the umbrella of confusion. Even if I don't know what the right answer is, who cares! Not knowing the answers does not have to equal confusion.

Thoughts on happiness.

Sometimes I wish things. Like that I was happy all the time. That's the ultimate goal in life is it not? (just to clarify--that is not really what I think) And when it is not happening it seems like wasted time. So much energy is put into rectifying the situation that one easily burns out, gives up, and succumbs to being---unhappy. Sometimes I think that if I would just give up trying to be happy, or worrying about not being happy, that happiness just might appear.

Then it's not always the worry of being unhappy that gets in the way, but situations. I sometimes feel like life is beating me down with a stick. God calls me an overcomer, sure. But darned if I have the energy to live up to that. I cannot forget things have happened, circumstances that make me cry, make me heavy. So what should I do? I feel like to give up. Maybe then my hope will be, yes my distant hope, is that there is a God and he cares, and he will fight for me, and he will make everything bad into everything better, not just for me, but for everyone I know, in every heart breaking situation that has happened. It is not a fact in my mind, just a hope.

Lovely.

My brother got married!

It was a beautiful wedding and this is my wonderful family. It may sound cliched but that is the truth!

I am Jeanne Tinholt's grandaughter

the spitting image of my father

and when the day is done my mama's still my biggest fan

sometimes I'm foolish and I'm clumsy

but I've got friends that love me

and they know just where I stand

It's all a part of me and that's who I am.