Answers would be nice.

Just when one begins to get cocky... I remember thinking a while back that I was not in a wilderness season, and being happy about that. It seems all of the sudden that has changed. My question has not been answered. I used to be ok with it, but once again it has reared it's ugly head and I have come face to face with it. It seems that the answer to this question changes what I think and believe about God. I want so bad for this world to not be so serious, for certain things to not be such a big deal. To live life as a journey, learning lessons when they come, and not being concerned that I am not beings serious or prepared enough to take on the challenges. Life without pressure. I lived that way for awhile and it was awesome and freeing, and now I am not sure if I am headed in the right direction of the wrong one in trying to be more serious. I think it takes more courage to be carefree then not. When one is serious it is easy to take the world into their own hands, in an attempt to feel like they have control.